Today I’m going to talk about your earning capacity.
And you might be thinking, “but Christina, you’ve been saying all along that we don’t have to earn anything; that our worth is already earned simply by existing.”
I’d tell you, “Correct, but are you actually leaning into that? Do you actually believe it?”
Are you living in the paradigm of conditional love where your earning capacity is based on your egoic motivations and movements… what you should do, what would be acceptable, and what would get approval?
Or are you living in the paradigm of unconditional love where your earning capacity is based on nothing but you living from your essence? Meaning, alignment with your truth?
True manifestation is effortless because that’s all it is – alignment with your truth, your essence, your highest frequency. Are you actually living your nature? Because your movements from there are entirely different than the movements from your ego, the contracted version of you, your survival mode. You can’t manifest what you actually desire from an inauthentic, fearful place. That’s when it requires discipline and effort and struggle.
Your essence isn’t seeking approval through fear. It’s seeking expression through love. It’s seeking truth. True manifestation is the world simply reflecting back you living from your heart.
A little background…
For the entirety of my life, productivity and effort and forcing outcomes were my normal. I truly believed that was how I made things happen. I would need to earn my keep based on effort applied. I received validation for that over and over again. And it became an ultimate truth for me – I have to earn my way through life. Who I was as a person mattered but only because of how I was perceived by those around me. What I had mattered more because it would validate my earning capacity, which was obviously rooted in my ego.
And not only did I have to earn my way through life, and earn everything that I would consider mine, I had to follow that curve of potentiality. Meaning, getting a job out of college meant that the more work I accomplished, the more I would get recognized by external factors and my earning potential would therefore increase as a result. The more I earned, the more I would be able to get and achieve and be seen as someone with great capacity to earn.
And so, all that mattered at this point in my life was my capacity to earn. And I was only able to earn through effort. I had to cause something to create an effect.
This worked very well for me up until I started hating what I was actually doing to achieve the desired result. There was no reason as to why I shouldn’t be happy with my work – I was making money, I was steadily increasing my networth, I was growing professionally. But I hated it. For starters, my workplace was incredibly dysfunctional. I wasn’t actually doing anything that made me feel alive and aligned. I was just existing.
It got to a point where I couldn’t stay another day. I was crying almost every day. I was counting down the hours until it was time to leave, though I rarely felt good about leaving because staying longer than expected looked better. Again, my ego was fully taking the lead of my life. I didn’t have any other job prospects, but I knew I had potential, simply because I knew that I was capable of effort… a lot of it.
I finally decided it was time to leave, and despite getting so much pushback from friends and family who wanted me to stay in the dysfunction – not because they wanted me to suffer, but because they were afraid of the unknown as well – I left. I was afraid of what would come, but I left.
As I’m writing this, I’m realizing that my divorce happened along similar lines. I was amidst so much dysfunction that I decided to leave, despite the projections of others and my own fear of the unknown.
These are two major examples in my life where I chose alignment over misalignment. These are two life-changing examples of where I chose me and my peace over the perceptions and projections of others.
Because even though I didn’t fully understand this at the time – or even at any time in my life where I had to let go of something or release something or leave something behind that had meant something about me and my life – I was moving in alignment with who I truly am, on a soul level.
This is never easy. Because who am I without a job? Who am I without money? Who am I without a husband? Who am I without a solid family foundation that simply looks good?
Again, this was a time when I was obsessed with how things looked rather than what felt true. My ego was all over the place.
What would my capacity look like now? When I have nothing to show for what I’ve rightfully earned but decided not to keep because it was simply out of alignment with me? Because it never felt true?
Is that even a good reason for anything at all? Or is it an excuse to self-sabotage? Is it an excuse to destroy?
Here’s how I know it’s not an excuse – because alignment is how my essence moves. My ego moves based on what validates me. Staying in these toxic environments would have been the excuse. It would have been my excuse not to grow, to stay small, to stay diminished, to let others walk all over me, to let myself go, to not speak my truth, to stay tethered to what’s toxic, to hold on to things that are clearly broken.
All because of my ego – my ego prefers familiarity over safety even if the familiarity of something is killing me.
Even now, admitting this is hard to swallow. I had to deeply feel this. I had to deeply grieve this knowing and every moment that made me feel like I was wrong for choosing my essence. Feeling this was the only way I could get to the other side of it. Because now, I can check myself. I can be radically honest with myself. I can keep it real and authentic with myself without making my past mistakes and misaligned choices mean something about me.
This is what self-love looks like. My ego wasn’t letting me love myself. My essence was always pointing me in the direction towards love.
And guess what happened as I started to increase my capacity for self-love?
I started to reconnect with and close the gap between me and my higher self.
I personally believe that your essence is your higher self. It’s your highest frequency. It’s your universal truth. It’s your energetic signature.
The more deeply you can connect with the power of your essence, the more deeply you can connect with the power of the Universe.
This means that connecting with my essence was the universal shift I needed in order to no longer rely on a broken and outdated way of being and doing.
Productivity and effort and forcing outcomes could no longer be my normal. I no longer needed to earn anything.
This is sometimes where people get tripped up though, especially the high achievers amongst us. We think that once we are aligned on our soul path and moving in purpose means that we get to apply the same outdated concept of being and doing and earning. We can’t. It doesn’t work this way. In fact, you will only slow down your momentum and often sabotage yourself repeatedly. And it’s not like you mean to; you literally just don’t know how to be any other way.
And listen closely because this is important: This was the hardest thing for me to learn and accept. I wanted to hustle for my purpose. I wanted to make it happen. I wanted to apply all of the effort I could because it was my calling. But the Universe, God, Source, whatever you want to believe in, did not. They wanted me to stay in the frequency of unconditional love so that I wasn’t earning anything.
Yes, I had to move based on divine inspiration. Yes, I had to commit to the vision and become the version of me who could hold it. But I truly believe that I don’t need to struggle for it. I don’t need to effort for it. All I need to do is stay true to that version of me, my essence, my higher self, my highest frequency. What is meant for me, in that frequency, will find me. And that is my main focus now.
This is what the Universe wants for you. This is how you live when you let your essence lead the way. You get to let your higher self, your highest frequency, lead your life.
Only then was I really able to notice the shifts happening in my reality. And trust me when I say this: it starts out really, really subtle… to the point where you might be thinking, “nothing is happening,” but really it is. It’s a practice and so the more you notice it, the more you want to do it, and honestly, the more you need to do it. It’s like working a muscle that was so underdeveloped. And when you do start to notice the momentum building around you and reality shifting before your eyes, keep noticing it, because that’s how you build on the belief that it’s possible.
Sometimes it’s easier for something like this to land when we are given steps or objectives that allow us to let things sink in, one shift at a time. So, I’m going to share 3 spiritual truths that really helped this land for me.
Number 1: My essence is all about frequency, and so I embody my most natural frequency, which is heaven on earth.
This doesn’t require effort. It requires consciousness and sensory awareness. I don’t match energy outside of me. I have and hold the standard that I choose to embody. This means that if my essence is truly a grounded and yet ethereal and peaceful presence, that is the frequency I embody. It is what is most natural to me, meaning, without everything and everyone around me, this is who I’d be. It is my heaven on earth. I don’t let my surroundings dictate my posture. I become the posture I want to experience. If my intention is to remain at peace when I’m working, doing chores, speaking, writing, in community, or on my own, then I embody this day in and day out. This is self-mastery.
It doesn’t mean nothing outside of me bothers me or disrupts me. It usually does. I have two small kids. I have my own business. I have an ex. I have responsibilities. There are other energies in my life who do not dwell in my frequency. But I can feel what I need to feel and just as easily let it go. Because it’s all separate from me anyway. It doesn’t get to disrupt me, unless I let it. That’s what it means to give your power away. I used to do it all the time… still do sometimes. But once you bring consciousness to your patterns, it’s very easy to let go of them.
Number 2: Anything that doesn’t reflect the true me falls away from me.
Anything that is out of alignment with me and that does not seem to be an accurate reflection of my essence is allowed to fall away. I decide that it can dissolve because it is not an accurate representation of my essence and then I let it dissolve. This requires a lot of self-discipline and self-awareness and a massive ego check. Because when things don’t look like they’re going our way, our ego wants to jump in and fix and solve. It takes a tremendous amount of restraint to let things unfold. This means you don’t touch it. You don’t influence it. You let it unfold and dissolve and cycle around you on its own. This can be any energy – a person, a place, a thing, a connection, a situation, a money problem. And you let it dissolve without expectation for where it might land or fall. You simply let it do its thing, but you stay in your frequency despite it. If it’s meant for you, or if it attunes to your energy, it will rise in vibration on its own. If not, then you let it unfold as it will and learn what needs to be learned from the experience. The point is, since you are the standard of energy, everything must meet your energy.
Number 3: Anything that does reflect the true me rises to meet me.
Whatever is meant for me will find its way to me. I trust that whatever aligns with me will truly make its way into my reality. Again, this can be any energy – a person, a place, a thing, a connection, a situation, money, resources – whatever it is that is aligned with my frequency. This is why it’s so important to have and hold your unique frequency. You can make magic happen. When I first realized this, I thought, oh wonderful, I can hit the frequency of having a million dollars. It’s not like that. This starts off subtle so that you can build up your new capacity. However, you can control how quickly you build your capacity. For me, it started with divine downloads of how to make myself more visible with my content and also how to create scalable offers within my business. It grew from there. I can elaborate more on my own business journey in a future episode, if that’s something you want to learn about.
And so, in conclusion, letting your essence lead the way is truly about having and holding the frequency that is you. Magic happens there. It’s not something you have to push or pull or force. It’s just you, being you.
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